Curses...

So It's 2.44 am on Sunday morning...

This has been the biggest B*#CH of a week! Last post I was pretty stoked and then I hit a wall called life! At the moment my youngest is up sick so as usual my mind starts turning.

As I have mentioned before, while I work on my writing I look after my kids while my husband works away... but that is not everything.

What I have not mentioned before is that my Mum is currently going through chemotherapy after having a double mastectomy in February. This is how my killer week started out, spending 6 hours in a hospital after the receptionist 'forgot' we were sitting right in front of her!

The whole cancer thing has stirred up a heap of bitterness in me as this is not he first time my Mum has had to fight death and I get a bit angry at the unfairness of it!

About six years ago I was standing in my parents front yard with a friend after a night out at the pub when a couple of police officers pulled up in my Dads car. They told me that some kids had been fighting on the side of the road in the night and one had mistaken mum for one of his enemies and had hurled a rock through her drivers side window.

The rock was about the size of a watermelon and crushed her face.

My friend and I spent the night by the phone while mum had the initial re constructive surgery. The next morning I went to the hospital and had to see my mum coming out of the anesthesia, unaware of what had happened. Her face was swollen to four times its normal size.

Mum spent 5 days in the ICU and the another 3 weeks in the hospital, breathing through a tracheotomy. Her jaw was wired shut for 4 months and then we spent the next few years having more surgeries, including removing all her teeth.

The person responsible only got a few months in jail.

For years I was so angry about all of this, and then I started writing and channeled my emotions into my story. But after hours in hospital rooms on Monday, I found it hard to let it go again. Our family had only just recovered from the accident when Mum found the lump on boxing day, so sometimes it can seem a bit unfair.

But in the end I have my family and I know that there are so many others out there so much worse off.

So I will say goodnight, get some sleep and get back to writing. :)

So Random...

I am very happy with myself right now.

Over the last two days I have managed to write around 2000 words! Finally the first real draft of Fall of Light is almost complete! I am hoping to submit it to Crit very soon... How exciting :)

I have decided to skip the prologue for the time being. I might come back to it at some point, but I suppose that all depends on how everything pans out. I think my attachment to the prologue stems from the fact that it was the first idea I had for FOL. But I bet almost every novel ends quite differently to how it was first envisioned.

I have also decided that one of my key antagonists is going to flip... Bwa ha ha ha :)

When one of my evil characters sees the error of their ways they will turn to the side of good... He/she may/may not have a romantic relationship with one of the key protagonists, and then he/she may/may not die!

I am choosing to not give too much detail, as I have yet to decide myself lol.

You see, I had already envisioned said protagonist with a different character when I came up with this bad to good deal. Soooo.... I am seriously thinking that I may let the romance between the good and the reformed happen, and then kill him/her off. So that my original unrequited loves can be together at last :)

Thinking of all of this I am reminded of one of my key problems! (other than my grammar lol)

I can't seem to find a home for magic on the protagonist side! And I am worried that in the final battle good may be out-battled by evil.

I just can't seem to think of a good reason that anyone on the good side would have magic with out it seeming boring or cliche! But I can't get rid of the magic either.

I have yet to name my magic* so for now I will call use algebra lol.

Magic A is the 'Good' and Magic X is the 'Bad"...

Magic A is used by expanding on elements that already exist around the user.

Magic X is used by creating something completely new, something unnatural.

Using Magic A is great, using magic X is dangerous.

Magic A takes nothing. Magic X can slowly drive you mad, as it takes your very life and turns it to how it wants it.

This is what happened to Dhaharakan! He started out ambitious, but after a while he turned mad! Each time he used Magic X a small part of him was made evil, until he was all evil!

***** If anyone has any suggestions for names of Eiliennia magic please let me know...I am looking for a name that is respective to the magic. No light or dark, or god or evil! Cheers!

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